and I live this life just to bear these scars.
my name is snoo eisen. I'm not anything to anyone.

I've been diagnosed with major depressive disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder and borderline personality disorder, and to a lesser extent, severe anxiety disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder and attention deficit disorder. I used to self-harm.

I currently take 120mg of cymbalta, 150mg of trazodone, 10mg of abilify, .5mg of klonopin, 50mg of naltrexone, and 54mg of ritalin. I have been in therapy since october 2009, and had a stay in hospital in june 2011, and one in november 2011, both for a week, and one in february 2012 for a month.
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May 26th
11:45

this is the summer when I get my life together.

the beginning of the end.

May 24th
18:48
May 22nd
15:59
May 21st
21:03

and the blood rolls down the drain.

May 20th
14:43

am I not everything you thought I should be?

May 18th
23:24
22:46

this distance is so painful.

May 17th
18:12

step back and destroy your body.

May 16th
21:43

I’ll always know I’m not enough to even make you think.

21:03

the damage has been done.

21:02

you never let me hold you tight.

17:30

everyone and everything must come to an end.

17:10

(Source: chelseawoosh, via snooeisen)

17:09
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Decembers

by Hawthorne Heights

snooeisen:

one of the saddest songs you’ll ever listen to.

let’s try to remember these days back in december.
our lives were very different, I was lonely when we first met.
a small upstairs apartment, driving through the darkness,
to get back home before they knew you were even gone.

you don’t have to speak because I can hear your heart beat.
fluttering like butterflies, searching for a drink.
you don’t have to cover up how you feel when you’re in love.
I’ll always know I’m not enough to even make you think.

please, slow down, girl.
we’re moving way too fast for their world.
we’ve got to make this last.

I miss you so much, a self-inflicted coma.
the days drag on, like marathons.
I’m running with bare feet.
when I feel the stress, I’m lonely and depressed.
I picture you in the dress who wore four weeks ago.

you don’t have to speak because I can hear your heart beat.
fluttering like butterflies, searching for a drink.
you don’t have to cover up how you feel when you’re in love.
I’ll always know I’m not enough to even make you think.

please, slow down, girl.
we’re moving way too fast for their world.
we’ve got to make this last.
I know it hurts to feel so all alone.
I’m by myself more than you could know.


if only they were all alone.

17:09
snooeisen:

before all the scars.
I was still in pain.

snooeisen:

before all the scars.

I was still in pain.